sorry for the absence
jus been very busy lately,
and cases of insomnia doesnt help.
but ive also been bored with eljay.
not with everyone else but of my own.
also trying to figure things out with certain things
but i never seem to come up with positive conclusions.
just cold hard reality.
but anywhos, i know i was to make a big pic post of my SD trip,
but im not gonna coz im not feelin it.
but if you still wanna check out the pics
take a gander at my Flickr page.
cheers!
- i am:
blah - the sound of my soul:Livin a Lie (feat. Rihanna) by The-Dream
when one lacks faith in themselves or the world,
a big hug and the words,
"it'll be okay."
restores the confidence
they need, to know
that they make a difference in this life.
the next time you see a person sad, distant, or confused...
know that they probably need someone to just listen.
life goes on and so do we...
...and we will all be okay.
- i am:
indifferent - the sound of my soul:Hear Me Out by Frou Frou
song obsession at the moment:
i describe it as if Chibi from The Birthday Massacre
went solo.
- i am:
bouncy
im back.
San Diego was fun, spontaneous, difficult, joyful, hurtful, and so much more.
it was def a learning experience.
i learned a lot about myself.
my family.
my friends.
my acceptance.
and my willing to finally let it all go.
i thought there was something that will make me want to come back to san diego.
other than my family.
but they've shown me they are doing fine.
they jus miss having me around.
nothing's changed.
which in some cases thats good.
in other cases, its the same old sad news.
same vibe, same people.
i moved in order to search for something.
something to extend my former being.
to complete whats been missing.
and im so grateful.
for having a patient and loving partner.
things may have been rocky, but i have a feeling
its just going to get better from here.
there much to be done in my new city.
make my mark and see where the wind carries us next.
i know more than ever that my intuition was right.
i needed this and i am certain now
that anywhere is home,
just as long as i have my man.
next up a big pic post!
cheers!
- the sound of my soul:Walking On Air by Kerli
- Nathan Davis - amazing artist and the only bear graffiti writer i know.
- San Diego...this friday...cant wait. my mom and lil sis are going to have the biggest surprise evar!
- *hugs to you all*
- i am:
calm - the sound of my soul:Closer by Ne-Yo
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the_mnemovore has been waiting for this post.^_^
First custom Munny yo.
man, customs are alot of fun!
(once you get stuff down with ideas)
check it out.
oh yah...new icon made for me.
squeeeeee!
- i am:
accomplished - the sound of my soul:Umbrella by Chymera
Suicide is rather a sensitive subject.
it affects those left behind tremendously.
they would wonder why would said person,
that they know do such a selfish act?
desperation. loneliness. for a moment to be finally noticed.
what would i know?
im a survivor.
there was a time when i felt so disconnected to world.
i was alone and on my own entirely for the first time.
my family was too distant or too busy to notice the signs...
and my 21st year was possibly the hardest step into adulthood.
yeah me. i tried to say fuck you to the world and life.
if life at that moment is how it would be for the rest of my existence,
then i did not want it.
i dazed out and then...
i stepped into oncoming traffic
without missing a beat and without holding my breath...
got hit by a sports truck.
flew and slid about 80 feet back.
knocked unconscious for about 20 minutes.
but it failed.
i woke up.
i got away with nothing worse
than serious skin shreds and bruises
that lasted for almost three months.
what i learned...
is that i wasnt meant to die just yet.
that nothing is as bad is it seems.
life had a plan.
and here i am.
alive. happy. living and experiencing
every brand new day.
and with that said
here is a relic, a momento
to those gone passed in anyone's life.
and for those that feel like there's no other way...
it affects those left behind tremendously.
they would wonder why would said person,
that they know do such a selfish act?
desperation. loneliness. for a moment to be finally noticed.
what would i know?
im a survivor.
there was a time when i felt so disconnected to world.
i was alone and on my own entirely for the first time.
my family was too distant or too busy to notice the signs...
and my 21st year was possibly the hardest step into adulthood.
yeah me. i tried to say fuck you to the world and life.
if life at that moment is how it would be for the rest of my existence,
then i did not want it.
i dazed out and then...
i stepped into oncoming traffic
without missing a beat and without holding my breath...
got hit by a sports truck.
flew and slid about 80 feet back.
knocked unconscious for about 20 minutes.
but it failed.
i woke up.
i got away with nothing worse
than serious skin shreds and bruises
that lasted for almost three months.
what i learned...
is that i wasnt meant to die just yet.
that nothing is as bad is it seems.
life had a plan.
and here i am.
alive. happy. living and experiencing
every brand new day.
and with that said
here is a relic, a momento
to those gone passed in anyone's life.
and for those that feel like there's no other way...
- i am:
sympathetic - the sound of my soul:Youre Not Alone by Greenhaus
you can download it here if you like it:
"Inside my mouth i can hear all the voices say
do not lean over the ledge
i shouldn't look down and i shouldn't have found
that your lips i still taste in my head
raising my glass to the head of the class
as she powers out steps one through ten
i think i'll be fine if i'm covered in wine
nice to hate you and love you again
and see you again
and see you again
weary and worn little monster is born
tell me lies and i'll justify them
desperate today and it's making me pay
for that night for that kiss for your bed
whoever dared to love someone out there
i don't need a balloon and a pin
the name of the game is outrunning the blame
so i hate you and love you we're friends
guess we'll be friends
i guess we'll be friends
do not lean over the ledge
i shouldn't look down and i shouldn't have found
that your lips i still taste in my head
raising my glass to the head of the class
as she powers out steps one through ten
i think i'll be fine if i'm covered in wine
nice to hate you and love you again
and see you again
and see you again
weary and worn little monster is born
tell me lies and i'll justify them
desperate today and it's making me pay
for that night for that kiss for your bed
whoever dared to love someone out there
i don't need a balloon and a pin
the name of the game is outrunning the blame
so i hate you and love you we're friends
guess we'll be friends
i guess we'll be friends
oh why (why) can't (can't) you take me in your arms now?
why (why) can't (can't) you take me?
why (why) can't (can't) you take me in your arms now?
why (why) can't (can't) you take me?
better stop crying hello and goodbye-ing
go on through me slip right through my hands
you get your time and the other half's mine
it's okay this love weighs fifty men
it's okay this love weighs fifty men
it's okay this love weighs fifty men
oh why (why) can't (can't) you take me in your arms now?
why (why) can't (can't) you take me?
why (why) can't (can't) you take me in your arms now?
why (why) can't (can't) you take me?
why (why) can't (can't) you take me in your arms now?
why can't you take me?
amen
amen..."
if anyone's been watchin SYTYCD?
this song was featured as the opening to
Mia Michaels amazing choreography...
enjoy.
why (why) can't (can't) you take me?
why (why) can't (can't) you take me in your arms now?
why (why) can't (can't) you take me?
better stop crying hello and goodbye-ing
go on through me slip right through my hands
you get your time and the other half's mine
it's okay this love weighs fifty men
it's okay this love weighs fifty men
it's okay this love weighs fifty men
oh why (why) can't (can't) you take me in your arms now?
why (why) can't (can't) you take me?
why (why) can't (can't) you take me in your arms now?
why (why) can't (can't) you take me?
why (why) can't (can't) you take me in your arms now?
why can't you take me?
amen
amen..."
if anyone's been watchin SYTYCD?
this song was featured as the opening to
Mia Michaels amazing choreography...
enjoy.
- i am: calm
- the sound of my soul:The Dance by Charlotte Martin
mid-july cant come soon enough
for vaca.
artshow went well btw.
sold several pieces and it was a much bigger turnout
than any of us expected.
heres one other piece i forgot to load up here
^-^
Sigur Ros's new album came out
*gasms*
but im really diggin some
Sam Sparro, Bloc Party, Lykke Li, and M83.
been on constant repeat.
heres some fresh new pics for ya
- the sound of my soul:Everybody But Me by Lykke Li
a very sweet and kinda sad video.
this song was also featured on SATC movie.
if you like the musings of Enigma, Enya, Deep Forest,
this would be right up your alley.
enjoy.
- i am:
peaceful - the sound of my soul:Naked by Bliss
- i am:
nostalgic - the sound of my soul:I Still Remember by Bloc Party
thank you for the following peeps,
for makin this passed weekend in Chicago
a magical one.
big bearhugs to
funkybearmartin, thefreek, skacubby, st_michael_iii, and mindcrime414.you guys roxx0rz.
Bear Shower @ Spin was mad fun.
and also squarebear (brian l.) and
jdawg1974i look forward to the next adventure.
^_^
- i am:
giddy - the sound of my soul:Version 2.0 by Bloc Party
jus two new paintings i made
that is going to be part of my gallery tonight.
w00t!
moar to come later.
- i am:
excited - the sound of my soul:Hot N Cold by Katy Perry
know someone who's jus too damn omnisexual for their own good?
send em this song. HA.
This is for all the Desktop
background changing whores:
Desktopography
photographs, digital artwork ,and even graffiti to have something for everyone.
i like the fact that its "Nature Inspired"
pretty amazing stuff to make any dirty ass
'puter screen pretty.
- i am:
artistic
according to a facebook group,
theres a new term for a type of bear/cub.
the Metrobear/cub.
the jist of it all in a nutshell,
is a bear/cub that has a fashion sense.
style.
which most of the time is such a four letter word in the bear community.
which would also mean that its kinda opposite
of an a-list bear.
in the sense that its not stereotypical.
you know the plaid shirt wearin, bootcut jeans sportin, woodsman look...
srsly yo. get an axe, paint an ox blue and jus call yerself Paul Bunyan.
or the not-knowin what team, jersey-wearin wannabe butch ass power bottoms...
-_-
which i understand yeah thats attractive to some...
yeah sure if yer fucking goin for a logging competition.
or coaching a team. go to an actual game ya fag. yeesh.
see im talkin shit here for the defense of the rare few
that DO want to be different.
ones that get ridiculed for wanting to look fashionable.
nothing wrong with wanting designer labels.
and i dont want to hear:
"But i cant justify spending that much money"
"i dont have the patience to look for good clothes"
"i want to be comfortable."
"i could never wear something like that because thats not normal for my body type."
( this goes on if you care... )
- i am:
ditzy - the sound of my soul:Bust It Bab by Plies feat. Ne-Yo
- Yeah I'm alive...
- ...and im still bitter...
- next life, im goin to be reborn as an evil overlord and destroy humans...and hug trees.
- alot has been goin on but not anything to write blog about
- got my first art show in milwaukee comin up.
- goin to chicago for the weekend next week. (anyone1 wanna hang out?)
- and goin to San Diego for Pride and Comic Con...
- also my mom and my lil sis dont know im coming so it will be a big surprise for them.
- Croma
- and um......................................
........................................ ....... - yeah thats it for now...
- i am:
unimpressed - the sound of my soul:Everyone Nose by N.E.R.D.
dear humanity,
you never cease to amaze me...
by failing with utter dissappoinment.
fucking die and go to hell.
srsly i just wanna beat everyone with a metal bat
til they are unrecognizable by human standards.
fuck my job, fuck people, and fuck you too universe...
i like to think im a good guy
but seems being nice and friendly,
jus doesnt cut it anymore.
*sigh*
im going AFK from eljay for awhile...
jus way too much going on in my world
to keep up with everything.
hope everyone else is having a better day,
and dont forget to tell yer mom you love her.
god knows i miss my ma dearly...
- i am:
exhausted - the sound of my soul:Lonely Train by Explosions In the Sky
Aight y'all here ya go!
new vid with my crew, Remix Dance Co.
scuse my n00biness,
but i was still learning most of the routine at that time.
hope y'all enjoy!
its almost 10 minutes long
so make sure y'all got time to kill.
and thank you my Rawrsome manfriend,
mindcrime414for puttin it all together!
*muah*
<3
i do have em up everywhere,
but veoh gives the best quality
without altering the upload.
*cheers*
- i am:
chipper
amazing video.
and this is a free download on itunes people.
get it while its hot.
and this is a free download on itunes people.
get it while its hot.
- i am: chipper
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